I feel so useless when clearly i want you to stay , but i don't even dare to speak up.
Whenever you ask me , "Are you okay?" , i force myself to say "i'm okay. :)" when i'm actually crying already.
In my heart , i miss you so much , yet i can't say it out.
Why must i keep letting my mind control me , instead of my heart?
Why can't i just look into your eyes , tell you that i love you , instead of avoiding you whenever we meet? Because i feel inferior. I'm not one of those pretty girls , i'm not smart , not talented , i'm useless.

Saturday : Went to yeele's house to practise for worship. :) It was fun haha. Practised till 8+ then yeele and amelia cooked prata to eat. ^^ Daddy fetched us home after that.

Today , wasn't the awesome day i expected. :/ had youth in the morning , played guitar and keyboard for worship. Haha overall , i think it was quite a sucess? :) Service , boring cus i was really tired , must be the medicine. :X Didn't sing during worship , sorry God. I promise i'll sing next week. :) I promise.

I'm praying hard that the week goes by fast. I'm going to collapse sooner or later. :/ well , i'm off to read the book i borrowed from uncle william , "The Heavenly Man" :) This time i'm sure i won't fall asleep. It's a really good book and i LOVE it. :) Haha bye.

For you so loved the world that you gave your only son , love amazing so divine , we will love you in return.
For this life that you give , for the death that you have died , love amazing so divine , we will love you in reply.