I'm seriously exhausted from all that waiting . I detest that feeling . You just don't know . Well , all i can do now , is to just reply "nothing:)" when you ask me what's wrong , give you a quick hug , run home , crawl into my bed and cry my heart out . I'm sorry , but..forget it .

Today was okay . Well , my old friend came back again and again , trying to harass me . I fell to its tricks and got myself all stressed up and moody . MOODY is a word that appears so often in my posts nowadays , that i think you guys are getting bored already . Look at me , what am i ?
Just a miserable , pathetic failure . Stop doing to me please . I can't take it anymore . I HATE YOU . And now i hate you more for making me say i hate you . Perhaps , i should just let go . YES , LET GO OF YOU . Perhaps , after letting go , i won't feel so stressed up , everyday , just waiting for you . Waiting for it , is like waiting for rain in a drought , useless and disappointing . I want you to get out of my life , but somehow , i just can't do it . I'm doomed , so doomed . Dropped into a hole so deep , i can't crawl out of it anymore . LIES , they are all lies .

Nothing much to say , my head's hurting like crazy and i can't sleep at all .