Tired , really tired . I don't know what to do with myself now . I see no point in crying over him . Well , nothing is forever in this world . I just have to get ready to face this cold and cruel world myself , alone . And i know i've never told you , that i love you , now it's all too late .
Sometimes , i feel like hugging you tightly , never letting go . I don't know how to hold you , but i want to .

Hanna , i love you for signing kat up for CCKSS idol:) I felt really empty today . Got back my results for geog ,math and sci . Got 64/70 for math , 51/60 for geog and 73/100 for sci . As i walked up to receive my paper , i forced myself to smile . I wanted to laugh and jump for joy but then i realised i couldn't . For the whole morning and afternoon , i was waiting . Waiting , waiting . I felt so weak , i slept through the whole of PE . I don't know what's happening but i HATE YOU .
Perhaps i should stop doubting you and trust you wholeheartly , but i just can't do it . I'm sorry . Well , i can't do anything anyway . Be angry for all you want . And i know you'll be reading this .