I wished i was the child in Jesus's lap.
Was searching for christian songs on youtube when i came across this song, "You were on the cross". It moved me to tears. Jesus suffered so much for us, yet i kept complaining. I never felt so guilty in my life.

He was there in all of my sufferings.
He was there, in doubt and in fear.
He was there, when i attempted to cut myself.
He was there, to catch me, whenever i fell.
He was there, when you weren't with me.
He made me know, i wasn't alone, fighting this battle.
He made me know, he was here all along.
He was on the cross, VICTORIOUS.
I love you, JESUS.