You gave me the strength to move on, even though i didn't deserve you at all. Thank you. :')

I cannot fathom why do i have this particular feeling whenever i see you. Hearing you call my name brings about a warm feeling inside of me. Your smile is enough to make my day and melt my misery away. Talking to you makes my heart race. Seeing you with other girls, makes my heart bleed. I'm confused. I still love him, don't i? So why am i falling for you now? No, it can't be. But why am i delirious with joy whenever people tease us by saying that we look like a couple. Whenever i'm around you, i just can't seem to think straight.
I was looking at you from afar, and our eyes met. My heart skipped a beat. I quickly turned away from you, had to fight the urge to turn around and look at your face again.

Well, i'm going to start anew. I'm going to stop thinking about him. If we weren't meant to be, then my love for him will fade away with time. It has already been 2 months, i should move on. I have great guy and girl friends, so why should i torture myself for him. Stupid me. The only silver lining is that the scars on my wrists are disappearing, just like how my love for him is fading away.

Yes, i've been reading his blog, and every read breaks my heart. 18 May will be the last time i'm reading his blog.

I'm starting anew. From now on, I'm going to study even harder. For God, and my parents. I want to show him, i'm still living, alive and kicking, even without him by my side. I can go to town myself without his accompany. I want to show him that i'm not that pathetic weakling anymore. I want to make him regret giving me up. I want his parents to know what i'm capable of.

I'm starting anew, with help from God. :)